Sunday, December 9, 2012

"We give you knowledge, and not the money; You're welcome."


    Many people have been asking me what they can send to my villagers. This might sound weird, and it’s kind of hard for me to say, but I’d rather people didn’t send gifts. I didn’t really understand this at first, but now I’m beginning to. When I volunteered in an orphanage in Romania, we brought tons and tons of gifts for the orphans, but that’s okay because we were there for such a short time.
Peace Corps approach to development is sustainable development: we don’t give money (you’re welcome.). Sure, we can teach village members how to apply for grants and help them out, but we don’t do it for them. The reason that we use titles such as ‘Counterpart’ and Co-Facilitator, is to emphasize that we’re not here to do things on our own. We’re here to help the communities mobilize, and learn how to help themselves. That way, when we leave, they are able to carry on their projects, and continue advancing, because they will then have the knowledge to sustain something.
The same thing sort of goes for giving out gifts or material help to my village that people send from home. Aside from that not being a sustainable approach,  my villagers would then always expect me to be bringing them things, which isn’t the image that I want here either. Yea I share my sweeties from America with them and let them try things, because that’s cultural exchange. But what if I brought in a box of shoes, and not everyone in my village got a pair? Or my neighboring villages got upset that I didn’t have anything donated for them? Or my clinic workers don’t understand why I wouldn’t first bring Western things to the clinic and it’s patients? The best and most important thing I can give the people here is knowledge.
     This is why, when you ask me what the kids would want here, I ask for beginning readers books, teaching guides, learning posters, easy experiments, etc... Things I can teach my village that is useful to them. Some of them never went to school, some of the young children will be too ill go to go school once they are old enough. Mostly all of them don’t know English. And there is a young boy who is deaf, and I’d like to be able to help them all communicate with him, and vice-versa.
… Also, I’ll always take soccer balls. That is one thing I will distribute through playing and coaching in mine and surrounding villages. I can even make this educational, and use the soccer training SKILLZ and Grassroots Soccer to teach about HIV/AIDs through the beautiful game.
      I love that so many people want to help out. But free hand-outs and sending material items is not sustainable, nor will it help them develop on their own, to get to a point where their country no longer needs foreign aid (this is a huge dream, and many many years down the line, but possible).
      That being said, there will be times when I’ll be working on a project, and ask for people from back home to donate in some way. If you want to help out, wait for these times. One that I know of for now is Camp GLOW (Girls Leading Our World) which I’m very excited to be a leader for next August. It is a week long overnight camp in which 20 grade 8/9 girls and 10 female counterparts attend sessions on empowerment, gender-related issues such as domestic violence, young marriage, HIV/AIDs, and other such topics. We will also be doing arts and crafts, as well as sports and other fun activities. Since I get to bring two girls from my area and my female counterpart, I will then continue to encourage them to start Girls Clubs at their schools and pass on the information that they learned at camp. This is an awesome experience for these young girls, where they can learn things that they might not learn otherwise. Most girls never really leave their village or get to travel, so it will be huge for them to go to an overnight camp. When we get more into the funding of these camps, I will post information on how you can contribute.
Front of my hut. Since this picture was taken, I've added 
many more handprints to my left wall, from everyone, 
adults and kids, that comes to see me.
The right outer wall is being cemented, which I will then paint 
over with blackboard paint, so I will have a chalkboard
to teach on. 

    I don’t know what the holiday traditions are for Christmas in Zambia. I don’t know if I’m supposed to do anything special for my village (I will, of course, share with them any things from America that are sent to me).  But, I’ve decided I will buy a goat, and we can have a feast together, and I’ll cook them a relish (side dish) from America to try. I’ve also never killed a goat, only observed the slaughter and held it while they skinned it, but I’m beginning to believe that any animal that you eat, you should have at least killed once and done the work for, so you appreciate what they go through in order for you to enjoy them. This is a completely different Caitlin. 

Two Months in the Vil

(Introducing ZamTips, little lessons I learn every day in Zambia)
ZamTip #1:
Never throw anything into your trash pit that you
 don't want to see the children playing with/sticking in their mouths a few hours later.
i.e. razorblades, your barf bag, moldy food, etc.
And as a Health Volunteer, I also recommend that you throw your used condoms down your latrine.

There's all this talk of the new intake of volunteers coming in a few months, and I'll no longer be one of the 'freshmen'. We're getting 6 (SIX!!!) new volunteers up in my district of Lundazi, totalling us at 23, but a whole 12 new volunteers in Eastern Province alone. But that means that a few of my volunteer neighbors that I've come to know and love will be closing out their service and heading on to new adventures elsewhere, and it makes me sad that they'll be leaving soon. My intake of health volunteers will all be reunited for the first time in 3 months, and have IST (In-Service Training) together in exactly a month, which that will mean that I'll have been in Zambia for 6 months. That's crazy for me to think about because I often think back to when I first got invited, and all the preparation I had to do to leave in such a seemingly short amount of time, and it doesn't seem that long ago. I was so stressed and excited! These last 5 months have gone so quickly, even just the last 2 in my village!

Since I'm typically horrible about keeping a journal in my village, and I usually just write letters to people instead, I've made it a point to keep track of the things I do each day in a pocketbook calendar (But I'll need a new one for 2013, and a wall calendar, too! *wink wink*). So I'll be writing this based off of memories from bullet points throughout my days. I feel like I haven't really done much in the last two months- actually, according to what Peace Corps wants me to do during my first three months, I haven't done anything- but then I look at my pocket book and I'm proud of what I've done. However, I still feel lazy and that I'm not doing enough or working that hard. Here's the last two months in review:

Thurs, Oct 11: First Day in Kamsokoto Village
   My welcome to the village of Kamsokoto was a lot more extravagant than I had expected it to be. As the cruiser drove along a bumpy bush path, I could tell we were getting closer to my village at the point when all the kids we were passing looked over, jumped up, and shouted something that sounded like "She's here!," then proceeded to run after our cruiser. Our PCVL (Peace Corps Volunteer Leader), Maggie, said she wasn't going to tell me which hut was mine, as she wanted me to guess, but she didn't even need to make that threat. Posted on the outer wall of my future hut was a picture of a baby being weighed during an Under 5 Clinic, one of my future jobs, and a sign that read "You are most welcome to Kam'sokoto village, the peoples den!" I didn't have much of a chance to look at the sign or my hut from within the cruiser, because before O'bren even put the vehicle into 'park', a group of men and women stood up and began clapping, singing, and dancing while swarming the car that carried myself, Jesse (PCV), Morgan (PCV), Maggie (PCVL), our driver, and a multitude of things that I would use to make this mud hut a home. After being embraced in hugs by all of the women, shaking everyones hand at least twice, and unloading the cruiser into my hut, they sat us all on a reed mat under a ginormous mango tree that is about 10m from my front door. My host father, Prince Kamanga, then proceeded to give a speech about how happy their village and the surrounding villages were to have me, that I was free to make this my home, and that all that I do will be successful and prosper through the work of God.
    As the cruiser gang was getting ready to leave so they could post Jesse at his site before dark, my host father stepped in and refused to let them go just yet, as it is Zambian culture to prepare food for a guest, and my host mom had started cooking for them already. He also claimed that if my friends left, I would be too shy and not eat lunch with my new family. I said he already knew me too well! No, I was starving, I would have eaten with anyone! It just would have been a wee bit awkward. They directed us into my hut, which they had put some short stools in and barely fit the 5 of us, and they brought in some of the most delicious chicken and sima I've had thus far.
   When Peace Corps pulled away and left me there with my new village, I didn't feel lonely or afraid. Everyone was so welcoming, that I immediately felt at home. The kids came to see me, and I couldn't stop smiling. I went with my host mother, named Agnes but who I just call Bamama, to the shallow well, washed out my Jerry cans with soap and sand (they once held cooking oil) and proceeded to try and carry 20L of water back on my head. I made it about 200 yards before I had to take it off, and the iwe (my 9 y/o sister) came and carried it back for me. (I later learned how to tell them, in short, that I have a weak neck. I explain to some people that I broke my neck a few years ago so it is not strong, and that in America we don't put heavy things on our heads, to which they were astonished...I also don't fetch my own water anymore because the women say I am too weak, but sometimes they give me their 5L bucket and I carry it on my head, balancing it with one hand- they laugh and clap.) I spent the rest of my first day setting up my bed, making some shelves out of wire and string, and starting to unpack and put nails into my mud walls to hold my pots. I went for a walk around sunset with my host father to a nearby village looking for a bag of charcoal for me to purchase, and I sat on a ton of different Zambians' front stoops, shaking many hands and introducing myself: "Mwatandala uli? Zina lane ndine Caitlin. Cait-linnnn. Enya, CatelinĂ©. CatelinĂ© Kamanga. (pause for laughter over my Zambian surname) Nkhukala ku Kamsokoto, kwene ndine wa ku Amerika, calo ca California. Ndine wojipereka mu Peace Corps, na ndine kuno chifukwa nizamusambila pavya umoyo na chitukuko. Nikukumba kugula malasha."- How is your evening? My name is Caitlin. Cait-linnnn. Yes, CatelinĂ© (Zambians cannot say Caitlin). CatelinĂ© Kamanga. I stay in Kamsokoto, but I am from America, the province California. I am a volunteer with Peace Corps, and I am here because I will be teaching about health and development. I want to buy charcoal. 
    Although no one was selling charcoal, because they all cut down trees and cook over burning logs, a boy knew where a small bag of charcoal scraps were, and he gave it to me for free. It was perfect for getting through the first two days until I could venture further out to find a larger bag. We returned to my village, and while my water for my bath boiled on my now-lit brazier, I brought out my soccer ball and started kicking it around with the kids. Which brings me to:
ZamTip #3:
Having trouble making friends in your new village?
Bring out a real soccer ball; the kids who once ran from you, crying,
will now run towards you, laughing.

Fri, Oct 12: Lessons Learned
  I woke up around 5 and began unpacking the rest of my kitchen and bedroom stuff, trying to nest. I realized that my mosquito net got lost somewhere in the move across the country. I hung millie meal sacks above my bed to keep bugs, dust, and twigs from the thatch roof above from falling on me while I sleep. I made tuna for lunch, which I dont particularly care for, but I wanted to clean out the tuna can so I could nail it to the wall and use it as a candle holder. I've eaten a lot of tuna to be able to light up each room of my hut. As I was busy nesting, one of the village women came and knocked on my open door. She pointed to a reed mat under the mango tree where women were starting to convene, and told me they'd like to sit with me. I made the mistake of telling her that I was "busy, busy". I instantly felt bad and stopped what I was doing, then went and joined the women that came to see me, and sat and laughed and misunderstood language with them. Which is:
ZamTip #4:
You should never be too busy to take a few moments
 to sit, be present with, and get to know someone,
 even if you can't understand each other. 

   They were wondering how I play soccer so well, so I explained to them the culture of sports in America,  the best I could with simple and broken Tumbuka-English. I told them I would teach the women how to play. They yodelled and clapped. I returned to my hut and left them sitting there, quickly swept and mopped (on my hands and knees), then brought two basins of water out to my front stoop. I told the women "I wash, you watch,"as I began to do my laundry, remembering the technique and rhythm that my earlier host sister employed while rubbing clothes between her two closed fists, knuckles acting as washboards. First off, the women laughed at what I said, then they laughed at the fact that a muzungu was washing her clothes like the Zambians do, which they are always surprised to see. The reason I had to tell them to just watch was because they would come and try to take over, and I wanted to kick off my stay in the village by showing them I could live independently and didn't need to be babied. I want to live how they do and participate in the culture as much as I can. At sunset I again played soccer with the kids and went through my nightly activities. My host father came and sat under the stars with me for a bit, then informed me that tomorrow we would get up at 6am to go meet the Chief.

Sat, Oct 13: "Meeting the Chief"
     I woke up at 6, and Badada and I got on our bikes around 6:45. We rode ~20km out to a sub-BOMA, called Mwase. Brooks, another PC volunteer, lives in Mwase, which I found out after the fact. I was thinking this was where the Chief stayed, until we pulled up to a Police post, got off our bikes, and went inside. As we sat there on a cement bench along the innerwall of a hot and stuffy room, I tried to pick up as much as I could from the conversation my host father was having with the police man, who was perched up at a raised wooden desk, almost like a judge presiding over a courtroom. I heard him mention a few things that I recognized were about me, so I assumed he was sort of registering me with the local police, so they would look out for me, as well as know why I was there. A few weeks later he informed me that he was actually checking up on some matter that had happened prior to my being there, and the visit really didn't have much to do with me at all. After we left the police station, I followed my Badada a bit further into town, then into someones yard. He had to stop in and see the owner of Dunavant, a fertilizer company, and pick up money from his last harvest. Then we got on our bikes yet again, and started back on the road towards our village! After a while I finally asked "where to now?" and he said to Kapichila, where the Chief lives. Kapichila is only a few kilometers from my village, so I didn't understand why he dragged me all the way to Mwase with him, but I appreciate now that he just wanted to show me around. When we got to Kapichila, we went straight to my clinic. There happened to be a meeting, so he had me go into a room and sit down with all these Zambians. The meeting lasted more than long enough, and I know this because I fell asleep sitting up. Probably wasn't the best impression for my first meeting at the clinic, but I had no idea I'd even be going to the clinic that day, and was exhausted from trying to get settled and adjusted to my new life and surroundings. Also from the long bike ride. However, USAID was in attendance of the meeting, and presented the idea of SMAGs groups. I also presented my little introduction in Tumbuka, and was able to meet all of the representatives from the 7 different NHCs (Neighborhood Health Committee) in my catchment area. Other highlights of my day included but are not limited to: Was given a free chitenge, got +1 marriage proposal, took a nap (told my village I was reading the whole time), fed a stray cat some sima, discovered scorpion spiders in my hut, decided I'd definitely need to get a cat fast, made soya that was way too salty so I ended up throwing it in the chimbuzi (big mistake, I think it molded down there and made the smell worse), and figured out that I need to learn how to 1) cook on a brazier, and 2) cook for only one person. But...the chimbuzi part just reminded me of my:
ZamTip #2:
Don't bring anything of value with you into the chimbuzi,
it's likely to fall into the hole of no return. Then every time you use the chimbuzi,
you'll be reminded of how you're pooping on your precious Raybans
or peeing on your once treasured iPhone. 
(*disclaimer- I own neither of these, what I dropped down my chimbuzi is more embarrassing*)

     That evening, after I had eaten and as I had just made myself a cup of coffee to sip while sitting on my stoop under the stars, Prince came and sat with me again. We had a really long talk about his religion, life and death, the stars, and then the work that I used to do back home. I explained many things and did quite a bit of sensitization about people with special needs. We also discussed the word "retard" and why he should discourage people from using it, as well as how to sensitize others in the community to accept all people.

Sunday, Oct 14: First Time in a Church in Zambia
     Church with Prince. I went with him at 10 am. I wore a white & gray shirt with a white skirt, and he worse an all white suit with a red tie- the dressing that they wear to church to signify being cleaned by the blood of Christ. We rode our bikes into the village of Kapichila, through the secondary school, and to a little white, open aired building. There were women sitting on the ground on the reed mat out front, and men sitting on benches or the hill side.  Of course me being a muzungu, I get offered a seat on the bench with the men. There was already a service going on inside, so I guessed we were all waiting for the next one. My host father just kinda said "You sit here," then walked away. I observed people coming up to the ushers at the door and, just before getting to their  plastic grocery collection bags, the church-goers would bend down and pick up a stick from the ground, then drop it into the 2nd ushers bag. Then they would sit down outside. After about 30 minutes, the girl next to me told me to come with her. She took me into a room attached to the church, filled with broken school desks, and Zambians around my age. Some of the guys in the corner spoke English, so I went over to sit and talk with them. I asked them what the man at the front door was doing collecting sticks, and he said thats the way they count how many people come to each service. Then the guys went through their regular Zambian series of questions: What's your name, where do you come from, are you married (followed by 'I will make you my wife'), what is your church? I can get through the first two without getting much of a hassle, but the church thing is a huge one to them. I can't sit there and explain what I do or don't believe, because they just argue with me and don't like what I have to say. Then they say "But you're white, it was you that brought religion to our country, and then you go back home and dont practice it?" ... I just tell them that my church is out doors, in the nature.
.....Well that led to the church taking their entire next service outside, under a huge tree, so I could have my church in the nature. There were about 200 people there under that tree, the women off on one side sitting on reed mats on the ground, and the men sitting on the school desks. And me, sitting on a school desk. Then there was the Bishop, in his robe, sitting in a comfy chair at a table in front of everyone. The service started off with a group of women getting up and singing and dancing, and then a prayer, and a lot more singing and dancing by different women or children. Then they came over to me and said that the Bishop would like to know who I was. So, I got up and stood on the table (even though everyone could see me, I kinda stick out like a sore thumb here), looked out at everyone, and shouted "Monire, bose!"- Welcome, all! To that, everyone burst out in laughter. First of all, they think it's hilarious when a white person speaks Tumbuka, because they don't expect it at all. Second of all, I put on quite an outlandish performance, in broken Tumbuka. When I was done, all the women yodelled for me, their form of celebration, instead of clapping. Then there was some more singing and dancing, and a very long sermon. The thing went on for about 4 hours, and I was getting tired and hungry. In fact, I dozed off a few times during, even though I was trying to listen to all of the Tumbuka and decipher what he was preaching about. I'm surprised how much of it I [think I] understood. It was a good experience, I'm just not going to make it a regular thing to go to church here. I do, however, want to go to all the different churches/religions that are here and experience them all. It's also a great way to see a lot of people from different villages that I might not have been to at once, and them getting to know who I am and why I'm there. They also like me more for going to their church ;)
    At church, I got 5 marriage proposals, some by men looking to make me their 2nd, 3rd, or even 4th wifey. I told them I must marry an American. The most clever response I got to that was "You are a Tumbuka from California, you should marry a Tumbuka from Zambia." To which I said that there were not enough cows in this country to afford my dowery. Without missing a beat, he countered, "How many do you require? And then how many donkeys, pigs, horses, and goats as well?" Done.
    Other highlights include but are not limited to: 5km walk with Badada, this time in a successful scrounge for a large bag of coal (cost=15,000 kwacha = $3), taking a nap (you'll see this is a reoccurring thing), talking to Bamama ku Amerika (!), having peaches from a can for dinner, sawing into my thumb while cutting said peach can, hammering my finger while nailing said can to the wall, and gaining a new candle holder. :)

Mon, Oct 15: My Day of Rest
    After waking up and reading for a while, I spent a good hour sweeping out my entire hut, which I've come to the conclusion, will never be clean, considering I live in a house made of dirt and grass. (Though now, this is an pastime activity that I really enjoy doing, I sweep my hut about 6 times a day, and "deep clean" every other day.) I then ventured down my promenade of village huts to one at the end of my row, where all the women were sitting and husking corn. I spent the better part of my morning husking and shelling dried maize with the women, as Badada had gone into town and wouldn't be taking me around to meet with the surrounding Village Headmen. We sat on the ground buried in and surrounded by piles of corn husks. As I pulled back the silks and ear wings, to find out what was inside, each ear of corn being a bit different than the last. Some had pale while kernels, some were tinted red or purple, or were a light shade of yellow. In some, the kernels were packed tightly together; in others, generously placed or half eaten by bugs. Sometimes I'd pull the layers back and white dust would fall to coat my hands, leaving just an empty husk with no corn to be seen. I've never harvested food before, I guess I didn't expect to see so much differentiation in field maize here. As we worked, the young girls would take a few husks, shell them, and roast the kernels over an open fire. After we had taken all the ear wings off the ears, it was time to shell them all. To do this quickly by hand, you would clear one husk of its kernels with your palm, then use that now-bare husk to knock the kernels off of another by rubbing it up and down against the unshelled maize. This quickly dried out my hands and rubbed my skin raw, leaving me with many invisible fiberglass-like cuts along my fingers and palms. But the time I spent sitting with the women, laughing, singing, and working with my hands, is something I hope to not soon forget, and something I hope to do more with them other the years. These are the moments that make me less lonely, and these are the moments they, too, will remember after I end service- that I stayed with them, learned from them, became part of their village, their community, their family.
     Other mentionable events of the day were but are not limited to: holding a 6 week old baby named Bornface; getting pooped on by Bornface.

Tues, Oct 16: Mental Health Day
     My 6th day in the village was Mental Health Day at the clinic. Again, this was a huge meeting held out by the school under some large trees. There must have been 300+ people there, including school children, mothers with their babies, elders, drama groups, the Chief of Kapichila, and officials from the Ministry of Health and District Health Office, of which I sort of work under. The Chief was sitting in his throne (an overstuffed chair) with some of his Group Headmen and guards alongside. The theme of Mental Health Day, and their focus for the next year, is on Depression. They spoke about what that is, and the drama group from the secondary school performed a few skits. There was also traditional drumming, dancing, and song, along with two adorable little boys who were dressed up and did traditional story dances. I really wish I had my camera. At the end, I got to meet some of the Health workers, then was quickly whisked away by my host father so we could go eat sima.

One Week Anniversary in my Vil
     I've attended one village meeting: the first SMAGs meeting for a NHC. When USAID (United States Agency for International Development) came to my clinic and presented the idea of safe motherhood, all of the neighborhood health committees got together to have their initial meetings and decide who would get to go to the big SMAGs training in January. SMAGs stands for Safe Motherhood Action Groups, and it's made up of a group of volunteers from clusters of villages (neighborhoods) and they are responsible for different health priorities involving safe motherhood in their areas, because a lot of times people are far from the clinic and aren't educated. Some things they teach about are warning signs during pregnancy, family planning, PMTCT- Preventing Mother To Child Transfer (For HIV+ Mothers), the importance of delivering at a clinic with trained midwives, the importance of ante-natal care, nutrition, and general education about safe motherhood. Too many mothers lose their babies or die while giving birth here. This is something that I was trained on to co-facilitate in my village, so I came to the meeting with books. The meeting was in Mapala, about 8km from where I live. [Back then, that felt like a long ride out to there, now it feels so short]. We met, again, under a large tree in a school yard. Prince and I were the first ones there, it was supposed to start at 8am. Then came another woman, around 9. A few more slowly trickled in, and we started the meeting with 8 people, around 10 am. Everything was in Tumbuka, I was completely lost, so I zoned out. Especially because they spent the first 30 minutes arguing about the minutes of the meeting and in what order they should do things. Then, they argued for over an hour about who would be Chairperson, Vice-Chair, Secretary, Treasurer, etc. So I started sketching things in the SMAGs books I had brought along, and then they asked me what they were. I told them "Oh I've been trained in this stuff, I have training manuals that I can help you with," and I head the expression that I've now heard every single day from my host father: "We are so blessed that you are here."

Friday, November 23, 2012

Ulesi means Lazy

Zambians are really hard workers. Everything they do seems to me to be such a tedious task, because of the luxuries that I grew up with. Where they will spend all day husking and shucking hundreds of ears of maize, sifting and pounding thousands of kernals, drawing water, gathering firewood, and cooking for many hours, I'm just like "Um, I think I'll heat up some spaghetti tonight.."- something that I bought in a store, packaged, and only have to boil in water for a few minutes. They have to prepare their fields by hand (no use of animals or machines in my village), they have to harvest all of their land, and if they want to eat, the rains better come. Their lives depend on the workings of nature. The water source in my village is a shallow well. If the rains don't come, or if they don't come soon, the well will dry up. If people plant their fields at the first rain, and then it's weeks until the next one, they will not have food. If people wait to plant their fields, and the rains come early, then they will not have food. If the well dries up, the women will have to walk, which they do barefoot in the hot sand littered with feces and sharp objects, to another watering source even further away, and carry their water back. 40L on their heads, 20L in their hand, and a baby tied to their front sucking on a breast. If they have to walk further to get water, that means less time can be spent preparing food, doing chores, and completing other activities that are required just to live day to day. They work from sun up to after sundown, beginning the day by sweeping out their huts and living compound then scrubbing their floors by hand, to washing their dishes in the dark after feeding their families dinner. They're awake by 4am, and go to bed around 9, or sometimes stay up the entire night drumming, singing, and dancing. They even work in the hot midday sun, a time when I'm usually hiding out in my hut, and they never complain about a thing. It makes me feel pretty lazy somedays. I still get up at 4, but after using the chimbuzi (toilet), sweeping out my hut, watering and placing my herbs outside, I usually crawl back into bed and read for a few hours. Somedays I read in bed the entire day. Sometimes I don't feel like lighting the brazier, and thats when I eat peanut butter out of the jar or just raw sweet potatoes for dinner. If I skip a bath one evening because i don't feel like making a fire, boiling water, and kneeling on the ground to wash myself out of a small bucket, they will wake me in the morning and tell me I need to bathe right then.

I don't find myself longing for the luxuries of back home, but somedays I do miss certain things. Sometimes I wish I could just turn a knob and have hot water come out of a shower head that I can stand underneath. Sometimes I wish I had an electrical outlet and could plug in a fan, or charge things, instead of having to bike 20km to a house, whose power might not even be on that day/weekend/week. I don't really think that life is tough here, it's just different and calls for a lot more physical work than back home. More work, and definitely a lot more time to do get things done. No pushing a button and zapping food to cook in 3 minutes!

There's a lot that I thought would be difficult that I actually really like. I enjoy going to fetch water with the women, and having them laugh at me when I get tired from only drawing 20L  from the well. Or as I stumble and spill water while trying to carry it on my head. I enjoy my long bike rides, sometimes hours long, to get to places. It challenges me, its doing good things to my legs and for my heart, and I get to meet people in every village that I pass through, as well as bike through such beautiful landscape.  It can get really hot, but there's always a mango tree to sit under, fresh fruit to eat, and women to laugh with. The language can get really frustrating at times, but I'm still studying and I know it will come in time. The best thing to do is laugh at myself when I mess up, and keep trying. I'm beginning to understand more each day. I drew light switches on the wall in each room of my hut, to give my hut some humour, but I really like that my hut is lit by just candles. I rarely use flashlights or headlamps, unless I'm out after dark. I think it's really cool about writing people letters and cooking and reading by candlelight only... Speaking of which, I think it's cool to be writing people letters in general. I like getting to put my thoughts to paper with a purpose, and I like that someone halfway across the globe will hold that paper in their hands in a few weeks and learn a little bit more about what life is like in Zambia. Sure, it's not instant communication, which I do sometimes need, but there's something special about a letter. I know how great I feel when I receive one, and I'm sure it excites my friends back home to see a personal letter from Africa. It means that someone took the time to sit down and devote time to someone else that they can't otherwise communicate with.

There are other things, like the 500 flies that buzz inside my kitchen during the day, or the scorpion spiders and mice that find refuge in my hut at night, but that all comes with getting to live here. And I've grown quite used to falling asleep to the sound of the termites eating my mud walls and building their home out of mine. I guess I can share. I'm thankful to sleep under a mosquito net each night, it's like my own secret fortress that no bug shall enter.  As it's been said, and what I think is the best description, is that living here in a mud hut is just like glorified camping. I thought I'd want a radio to help me fall asleep at night, but the truth is, I don't listen to any music except sometimes on long runs or bike rides. I'd rather my ears be filled with all of the life that surrounds me, which is something I don't expect to become tired of anytime soon. There is always laughter- women, men, and children laughing all day. There is never yelling or fighting, and the children rarely cry. Someone, if not everyone, is always singing. Each night, all night long, the drums are being beat in a nearby village. The silence that remains is filled by the crackling of fires and the sing-songy chirp of crickets.

I get to be in the nature, and that is where I'm happy. As long as the natural beauty of this world exists, and I may live to see it, the sunshine, the trees, the painted skies, the rhythm of people living peacefully and harmoniously, as long as this lasts, I cannot be unhappy. According to the cycle of emotions, I'm in my honeymoon phase of service here: excited and in love with everything. It's said that after this positive spike, there will be a negative one. And while I'm sure I'll face obstacles that will challenge me and put me down at times, I don't think I'll ever stop loving life here. This is me, I'm right where I should be. To be quiet and alone with the heavens, nature, and whatever I perceive god/s to be, is when I feel that all is as it should be, and that people are meant to be happy amidst the simple beauty of nature.

These are the things I think about during my sunset runs.